Damn, I thought maybe these days were maybe behind me: Saturday, January 09, 2010
Today was an odd day. I woke up feeling good and prepared to go to work (yes, on rare occasions we work whenever necessary, Saturdays included) for a few hours to see if I could help with some server issues we’d been having. Saturday is a good day to do this because mostly the place is empty.
Any way, I was fine the entire time I was there, but got really ill as I started the return drive home … which was just around noon time. Unfortunately, this lasted for the rest of the day and not much else was accomplished. Funny how that works, all week I felt fine and then “boom!” … right back to where you started.
Damn, I thought maybe these days were going “by the way” for me … but I guess they’re here to stay, at least to some degree and some random pattern that I can’t for the life of me figure out. You just don’t know and can’t tell when they’re coming, and what the rest of your day will be like.
In these types of situations, what I’ve learned to do, is to set my sites on tomorrow and put everything off for another day. Which is at times, frustrating, but necessary. I’ve spent most of the day feeling “off”, but now it’s about 9:00 pm. and I’m just starting to feel OK again. Of course, I’ll want to start doing things because I feel better, which in turn will keep me awake most of the evening … and so on, and so on.
What I’m beginning to see is that it’s a cyclical thing. These waves of illness seem to rear their ugly heads at the most inconvenient times … of course, when else would it happen, and on second thought, is there ever a “good” time to happen? The effects can be, at times devastating depending on what’s going on at the moment.
For instance, today I was driving home in the car by myself. I was just pulling onto the entrance ramp of the highway when it started to hit. By the time I was traveling fifty miles per hour, I was as sick as can be. I pulled into the slow lane and put the car in cruise control and slowly took the ride home.
I spent the rest of the day napping on and off (yep, believe it or not, I took four naps today), and that’s after a decent nights sleep last night. I seem to have absolutely no control over these waves.
Truth be told, I get these waves everyday at some point but, they don’t always last very long. Sometimes, as short as twenty or thirty minutes. As they come on, I can feel the (at least this is what it feels like) the blood drain out of my face and hands, and within seconds I can go from feeling totally normal, to as sick as a human can get and still be able to stand. I really mean seconds too, like the maximum of about ten seconds.
At other times, this feeling seems to last for days at a time … what a strange thing.
So as far as doing anything today, or getting anything done … well, I didn’t. Sher and I had talked about going down to the Health Club after dinner … but today wasn’t the day for that … maybe tomorrow.
