It’s Sunday morning 10am and I’m just waking up, and I might add having a damn hard time about it too. For some reason I feel like I never went to sleep, my head is cloudy, body weak and I’m feeling slightly sick to my stomach. Every muscle in my body aches as though it were over-used, even sitting here at the keyboard is an effort. Even my eyes drift in and out of focus.
I have noticed in the past month that waking up is becoming more and more of a challenge. Not the actually opening of my eyes, but the get dressed, get out to the coffee pot, the get going part. Once I’m moving along … I seem to be able to keep going for a decent part of the day.
Some days are just difficult to get through. Now I know part of this must be psychological, at least I feel like it certainly could be. Somehow during the week when I go to work, these feelings of being extremely run down seem to hold off. I mean, I never “spring” out of bed anymore, but I do manage to get going within an hour or so of being awake … that doesn’t seem to be true on weekends.
It’s a huge effort sometimes to get moving.
Maybe I’ve just been lucky in that the timing has been so that I can function at work. But it seems that every weekend, I basically fall apart for a few days. Maybe it’s simple exhaustion and that after working all week there’s just no energy left to do anything but rest. I wish I knew what it was.
Anyway, I’m alright, I just feel like “hell” at the moment … and I guess that effects the why my writing comes out.
Yesterday, Sher and I took a ride up to where I’ve been working. She hadn’t seen the place and I thought rather then hang out another Saturday and work in my home office, getting out for a bit would be a good idea. I was feeling pretty good at the moment, and so wee took a ride.
Now I know that going for a joy ride to where you work is not exactly my idea of a fun time … but, she had never seen that office and I thought “why not” it’s a few hours out and we’ll grab some lunch and make a day of it. It’s a nice place and if during the week she wanted to come up for lunch or something, she’d know where it was and blah, blah blah.
We got there and I showed her around a few minutes and we headed out for lunch. The place we choose for lunch was totally packed, I just couldn’t believe it … on a cold and windy early Saturday (about 11:30) there wasn’t a table left and we had to wait about 30 minutes for a table. We waited …
After we finally got seated and ordered our food, I started to feel, what we call “pale”, you know that feeling, we all do, when suddenly you just feel sick. It’s hard to pinpoint what and why, but suddenly within a few minutes you can go from feeling fine to “I just want to lay down and sleep” thing. Lose of appetite also occurs and in simple terms … I just wanted to go home and sleep it off.
Making a long story short, we headed back home and I slept most of the rest of afternoon and woke up about 7pm … it was getting dark and I felt like I’d missed the whole damn day.
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