Just Fine and Dandy, but Who Has Time To Be Sick? Reprise: Thursday, May 06, 2010
Reprise? Isn’t that a music related word? Well, when I looked up the definition of reprise, I was surprised to learn that there were so many for the term.
“repetition of all or part of a song which has already been performed during the show;”
“a clown’s short interlude played during breaks, between acts;”
“a return to an earlier theme;”
“a renewal of a failed attack, after going back into the en garde position;”
So I guess I’m using the third definition, “a return to an earlier theme;”, or maybe the second definition is simply more accurate!
What I was trying to say in the last post before I got carried away with the rant on “time” (which by the way, I have a lot more to say about), is that I’m trying to re-arrange my/our lifestyle to accommodate the changes in our lives that have occurred over this past year.
Has it really been almost a year already? … well, not quite. Although considering I was given a mere six to eight weeks to live last August, I think we’ve gotten through the first part of this cancer thing pretty well … and for that I am thankful. A busy time or not, at least I have “some” time to work with. The results of all these treatments and such could’ve turned out a lot different then it did … so understand when I complaining it’s really just blowing some steam off.
As I was saying, there are a few things that I have to do, and a few more I like to do, and do them all before I no longer can. For one thing, I’d love to do a final round of maintenance of our home. One more time around the house repairing as much as I can. Seal it up well, get it painted and repaired as best I can before I’m no longer able to do any of that kind of stuff.
You know all this, is in preparation for the future in the event I take a turn for the worse. It’s going to happen … but who knows when. It could be a few months down the road and in the same breath I can also say it could be years . I don’t know. There is no way of knowing and all we can do is try and plan it out a little bit.
What I have learned is that there isn’t much of a warning … one day you just wake up sick and you stay that way. I’m lucky, I got a reprieve, a temporary stay …
That’s one of the horrors that people with cancer face. Judging time is completely impossible. I know that can be kind of a difficult concept to understand without experiencing it. Can you imagine your mate says, we should start thinking about replacing the roof, or fixing the barn up, painting this or that.
Well my immediate reaction is to “Let’s try and do it now while I still have the energy and an income”. because that could change anytime . Well hold up there for a moment, I swore I was going to write this blog as open and honest as I could. there are actually two trains of thought that tend to run through my head in measuring up things like this. Sure, one of them is “Let’s do it now” and the other is “Who really gives a damn”.
Now for some of you that may seem like a no-brainer . fix it up now and later your mate will be better for it. Nothing wrong with that thought, nothing at all. But is that what your mate really wants? Will it really make a difference at all if I leave the barn or house well maintained?
Maybe we’re better off with more fun-type or interesting memories. You know, experiences that we could share together that could stick for a long time, a life time. Maybe it’s something like letting all the material world items “go to pot” and focusing on things could be so much more meaningful then a freshly painted barn.
So ummmm, what kind of thing might that be? .
