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Oops! Surprise, surprise, surprise: Chondrosarcoma, Tuesday, February 22, 2011

February 22nd, 2011 No comments

Remember Gomer Pyle USMC? Well … I had my own surprise today. The story really begins a few days ago … well, maybe last Thursday or Friday when I started having some issues with my right eye. The issue was that I seemed to occasional loss vision in it … and I mean loss of vision. Either total blackness or total white light in my right eye.

Well, to make a long story short … I went off to see my primary care doctor Monday to ask about it. Once again my doc ordered the right tests for me and by the end of the day I knew I was in for a big one. Yep, tomorrow morning (Feb. 23, 2011) I go in for at least carotid artery surgery and who’s knows … could be a major bypass situation.

Gee whiz … and I thought things were just beginning to calm down a bit from the chondrosarcoma. Here we go again… nothing like a little excitement in life.

Hey, over the next few days … you can call or email Sher and help calm her down :-) .

If all goes well …. I’ll see you all in a few days.

To learn more, Google carotid artery surgery … you’ll get the drift!

BTW … I ordering a whole new body from Amazon as soon as I get back from Dartmouth. This stuff is starting to get old :-) .


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We’re Off To See The Wizard: Chondrosarcoma, Wednesday, February 09, 2011

February 9th, 2011 1 comment

What’s been going on in life? Well, a lot has, in fact so much that I haven’t had time to keep up with it all. What else is new?

Keeping up with things in life, not only requires a constant level of energy, but a high level of concentration and both of those items have become as valuable a commodity, as just about anything could be. Oh, what I wouldn’t do for more energy.

You know those five hour energy drinks? … little tiny bottles of nasty tasting stuff that’s supposed to give you a boost through the afternoon, or give you “jump start” in the mornings? I could drink a dozen of those things right after waking up from a twelve hour sleep and go right back to bed.

My average day is actually rather simple … I’ve desperately tried to redesign my life’s days to intentionally reflect simplicity because of this energy problem, but unfortunately, I haven’t found that right combination that provides the increased desire to sleep and rest more often, and still accomplish the things in life that I need to do, in order to survive both financially and mentally.

In fact, the other day I said to Sher, that I thought maybe, at one time, long, long, time ago, that people might have hibernated like some animals do during winter. For the first time, I can honestly relate to this mode of living. Really! I mean, if I could pack myself away for the winter months, I’d do it.

There are several things that just seem to ‘use up’, absorb or require lot’s of energy that I just can’t (or maybe not willing to) do without. I mean, like working. None of us can get by without working. How could you? Work not only has financial reward, which helps a lot, but also the sense of accomplishment that we all need. That’s something I’m not willing to lose or reduce.

Another thing is art (for a lack of a better word), I consider art to be a major part of a balanced life. This includes everything from keeping sharp on my guitar playing, to writing, to creating 3-D computer art, and everything in between. If you think about it, your art time, is often the only time you get to “work” for yourself, sort of speak. The Labors of Love.


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Yet another thing is children, children require lots of time and energy to grow. Ha! sounds like I’m talking about growing a plant or something … but it’s true. It’s a never ending thing. Often I blend several of these things together, in an effort to try and accomplish two things at once … like the old saying ‘killing two birds, with one stone’. Hence to the idea of teaching Al to play guitar. While getting it out of my system, it’s also teaching him. Last week I did it again with my computer. I showed him how a computer language can render a beautiful piece of art, simply by writing a file and sending it to a rendering engine to interpret it. We designed a Star Ship for fun.

For those that understand computer art, we used the POV-Ray engine (Persistence Of Vision, Point Of View), and a simple text file to create the ship below. While it’s not finished by any means, we do have a good start to it. For those interested you can read about the scientists that designed the render engine and language, why and what it’s all about, at POVRAY.org.

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HAPPY NEW YEAR! (Better late than never): Sunday, January 02, 2011

January 2nd, 2011 No comments

Wow! It’s just hard to believe that another year has gone by, and it’s been a crazy one too. Last year around this time I was just finishing up my treatments and travels to Boston and getting resettled at home. I wasn’t back to work yet, and feeling quite weak and tired from all the radiation and proton therapy … but I was also very happy to be seeing another New Years Eve.

But here we are now, a year later, healed and in decent shape, considering all that went down last year, and hoping this year will be better than ever! It’s certainly starting off that way! We had a great holiday season and for the first time in my life not only did we have fun …. we also got the house cleaned up and most of the decorations put away! Now that’s a first for me … usually my holiday decorations remain in place until at least mid February … but not this year.

So in the spirit of keeping this short and sweet, I wish everyone a Happy New Year and let’s hope we all have a better year.

Peace, Love and Happiness to all.


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General Ramblings: Sunday, December 12, 2010

December 12th, 2010 2 comments

I’m was sitting at my PC earlier today, staring at the monitor, thinking about what I should be doing instead of just sitting here. I could at least be writing something for the blog. With all the things going on in life you’d think it’d be easy to conger up something fun to write about. It’s that time of year between the holidays and while usually busy, I should be cheery and full of exciting things to say …

…. but not today.

Sometimes it’s a struggle to put, not only your thoughts in order, but then into words, and words that make credible sense.

It’s a cold, cloudy winter day here in New England, grey with a heavy overcast. A light mix of snow and rain is falling, and as I glance out my window, I think it’s the kind of day that often brings a rafter of wild turkeys running through my backyard … but somehow, it seems darker and colder then it ought to be, still be allowed to be called a day.

My bones are aching too, I’m not sure if it’s from the dreary kind of weather we’re experiencing or if it’s just par for the course of living with cancer. But I guess that may be a déjà lu for those regular readers. Yes … it’s a real phrase … no kidding, like the more common term déjà vu which basically means “already seen”, déjà lu means something you’ve “already read”, or “read before”. On days like this, I often think I’ve written enough … maybe too much at times.

While I sit here, I can hear the occasional car drive by outside with the sound of it’s tires working their way through the evening slushy mixture, and I think that if it were all snow, I would have never have heard it. I’ve always loved the way snow muffles the sounds of society … that, almost total silence. Funny thing too, I’ve heard that sound everywhere I’ve lived (at least in the northern regions of our country), whether it was in the city, suburbs or rural areas. It always there …. yep, even in the middle of New York City the snow muffles the sounds outside in the streets. Even out in the woods the sounds of nature are silenced by snowfall. Just one of those beautiful things in life I guess.
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Short Forgotten Stories and Other Funny Stuff: Monday, September 06, 2010

September 6th, 2010 No comments

Finally a Three-Day Weekend!

Well I was really looking forward to this weekend! Three whole days off from everything … no work, no nothing. I figured I could finally get a few things done around the house, maybe a little work on the website, oh and maybe even work on my Cancer Tracker a little. Alberic wasn’t here this weekend so I usually take advantage of that time and get as much done as possible. Instead, somehow I managed to sleep the whole weekend away! Oh well, guess I needed it … sure feeling well now though!

Damn, Just What I Needed!

Truth be told, my weekend didn’t really start off sleeping like that … it started like this. I had gotten home from work a little early on Friday and thought I’d try and get to bed a bit early so that I could start my weekend off trying to do some of these little things I’ve been trying to do. With three days off in a row I figured I’d get some things done and some rest too … right? That balance that I struggle to keep going without reaching exhaustion isn’t always easy to find.

I got up early Saturday morning feeling pretty energetic and decided I’d cut some of the lawn (hopefully for the last time this year), so I went out into the barn and started the tractor. Now, anytime I plan to do something like this these days (but this I mean physical work), I take a dose of medicine before I start. The idea behind this is that I know I’ll be sore and hurting later … so I put the meds to work right away. Even though it’s strong stuff and does affect your judgment ( I never drive and take this stuff), doing little things around the house always seems to go OK. I may work a little slower, but that’s OK … I simply take my time and get the job done.

Sher wanted to run to store and grab some items for dinner and said she’d be back in a few minutes. So it left the dog, cats, and myself at home. Now you have to understand that our dog is really attached to Sher, she literally freaks out every time Sher leaves the house. She doesn’t go totally crazy, but she cries and whimpers while she waits for Sher to return.

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