Chondrosarcoma – ah shit, bob's sick

Tomorrow is the Boston Proton Planning Session.
I drive to Boston.
I get scanned.
They take their measurements.
Make their plan.
And I return in two weeks to start the process.

It’s so crazy the way this is all done … just totally amazing. With the protons (which are positively charged Hydrogen atoms) they plan on changing or altering the DNA structure of the tumor while inside me. The idea behind it, is that the tumor will not be able to repair it’s own DNA, and therefore, stop reproducing more cancerous cells, and hence, stop growing any larger.

Unfortunately, this will not alter anything that’s already been damaged. By this I mean, the function of my legs, pain, etc. etc., should all remain the same … however, I won’t get any worse either, and that will be more then satisfactory with me . So, the way I am, is the way I’ll be.

In reality, ten years ago, I would have already “bought the ranch” sort of speak. So anytime from this point on … is bonus time. They sent people like me home with a giant jar of morphine and syringes and told them that’s all they could do. So already I feel lucky. Every single day that passes, is another day I’ve won … and honestly, that’s all that matters.

Time expectations? … well, who cares? I ask. I’m already ahead of the game, so every day’s a winner for me.

Health wise? pains? … yep, both are a problem at the moment, but nothing I can’t live through. If they can halt the cancer in it’s tracks … then managing the pains and my basic health should be OK.

Please keep in mind, that this is not a cure-all. There is no cure for this Chondrosarcoma. What this is, is a trade off … for more time, if it all works.

Think positive, keep smiling and laughing (I am) and with a little luck, all this will be worth it in the end.

If I’m back from Boston early enough … I’ll try and make a post.